Sunday, September 28, 2008

Jess Feeling Nostalgic. Again.

Why
why
why
why........

"Traumatize 6E"


"6E 2007 + MingYi"


Guys please stop uploading form6 pictures onto facebook lar....

What is this?! Why am I missing my days in Seafield??!
I've been there for 7 years! Enough is enough!


Every time I chat with Amelia Chan -


"AmeliaChan is the one with the lips"

Week 1 July
-

"Hey dummy Amy how are you?"

"I miss all my friends!!!!!!!!"

Week 2 August -

"Hey dumbo ChanJiatHee how are you?"

"I miss you guys!!!!!!!!!"

Week 3 September -

"Hey JiatHee your name sounds like a boy how are you?"

"I hate uni I miss all of you!!!!!!!!!!"



I miss PigCousinCarol laughing at my lame jokes.
I miss Shiny giving me *the* look.
I miss Trac having frizzy hair.
I miss Woody being kayu.
I miss Loi growing her forehead.
I miss Amy laughing at everything.


I miss Daisy prejudice-ing against me because I sleep in her class.
And wrote Pn Daisy Duck on my notebook which I passed-up.


"Nerds in the making"

I miss Kang complaining about his baldness in class.
But still continue to smoke a whole pack of cigarettes per day.


I miss Joyce-eeeee squelling Jess-eeeeeeee then brag about how slim and pretty she is.
And I hate it because she IS.

I miss Looi's hypnotic voice that manage to put us to sleep every time.
We did try VERY hard not to sleep but her powers were superb.


"Rachel clearly not thinking about Chemistry"

We spent so much time together! Almost every waking hour most of the days! Rapid KL and KTM became our best friends every Friday when we run for our lives to grab the frontest seat in Mr. Goh's class yet still didn't get an A for PengajianAm (I will remember this for the rest of my life)


"Ung Lee Lan"

I miss us using ONE NIGHT to finish our biology project over webcams (God bless MSN) Not only that! I really miss DaisyDuck separating the 'fantastic four + silver surfer' in the lab and didn't even allow us to smile. I miss her 3 quarters blouse and 3 quarters skirt paired with flat shoes which SCREAMS "I AM PN DAISY"



"Self-timer"

I miss our LakeView adventures 6 in the morning!
Tracey screaming while we're catching the bees
Shiny yelling at me while I'm catching the dragonfly



"Interesting Bugs"


I miss the soya bean, air mata kuching, machi and porridge stalls at Petaling Street!
The machi toothless grandmother quite old already,
we gotta go back soon before......



"Loi's perky butt in addition to big forehead"

I miss Mrs Gooi and Ms Elizabeth houses...
Funny how we fail to show up there after we got our STPM results....


"ZERO"

I miss Old Town Kopitiam every Thursday night.
And the same Berry's American Chocolate cake we buy to celebrate everybody's birthday.




I don't know why but I just really miss everything! It is not the same now and it doesn't feel RIGHT. There is just something missing when I'm with my newfound friends. I can't feel the 'connection' like how we always know what is each other thinking and Shiny will go "You stole my brain!"


"OUR MPT5!"


"MingSze excited about math"

It's actually "You stole my thoughts!" but forgive Shiny's engrish lar...

I don't really wanna 'make new friends' because in my mind I somewhat confirm that nothing can compare to Form6 and Shiny + Woody 14 years of retardedness. We know each other from head to toe, laugh like crazy in the KTM until some uncle also laughed along, gossipped about our 'enemies' and it didn't take any effort at all because we all share the same wavelength of thinking (with exception of Trace and Woody sometimes) It feels funny having to make an effort now, having to be nice to strangers and trying hard to find something similar.

Sigh.
I never thought I'd say this but -
I really really really miss you guys.

Saturday, September 20, 2008

It Is Time...

Sigh.
I do realize the fact that I still own a blog.
But my life is so dull I wanna spare you guys the misery.


So SAT is 14 days away, thanks to my dear friend Farah who counts down everyday on facebook. I shouldn't be scared because I've already taken it once before right? But yucks the world is cruel and I'm afraid of taking it again because what if I can't make it AGAIN? I'll be like the biggest failure in the whole universe.

I've questioned my capabilities alot lately especially since STPM and I feel that my nightmares are coming alive to haunt me. I have all these positive affirmations plastered all around in my room, I really did believe in the infinite source of my capability yet failure always rear its ugly head.

I'm constantly afraid.
Afraid of whether I will succeed.
Afraid of whether I am really good enough.
Afraid of whether there are rats/birds/cats in the kitchen.

2am I wouldn't dare to walk downstairs to get myself water no matter how thirsty I am because I'm afraid that 'something' will jump out and scare me.

And then I would hear Pastor Kong's voice in my head "Do NOT be afraid!". It was a sermon he preach long before about a servant who didn't manage to fully utilise his talents simply because he was AFRAID.

The story goes about a man who was going on a journey and entrusted his property with his servants. When he return, his first servant came and said

"Master, you entrusted me with 5 talents. See, I have gained 5 more."

The second one also came and said

"Master, you entrusted me with 2 talents; see, I gained 2 more."

Then the man who had received 1 talent came.

"Master," he said, "I knew that you are a hard man, harvesting where you have not sown and gathering where you have not scattered seed. So I was AFRAID and went out and hid your talent in the ground. See, here is what belongs to you."

His master replied, "You wicked, lazy servant! So you knew that I harvest where I have not sown and gather where I have not scattered seed? Well then, you should have put my money on deposit with the bankers, so that when I returned I would have received it back with interest."

Each time I feel afraid, I would hear Pastor Kong's voice in my head "DO NOT BE AFRAID!" And if I do continue to feel afraid, I would see myself as the last servant entrusted with 1 talent yet wasn't even able to fully utilize that 1 miserable talent because of fear.

So many times we give up on doing things because we are AFRAID.

But is AFRAID real?
Will AFRAID jump out one day to bite us in the ass?
Why are we always so AFRAID?

Well, so this post is so cliche and not JessLoke so I'm gonna end it with a corny quote anyways.


"Losers are people who are so afraid of not winning, they don't even try."
Little Miss Sunshine

Monday, September 08, 2008

Hey Hey Jess Is Still Here!

Erm.
Hi!

By the way Happy Merdeka!
Thanks for all your Happy Merdeka messages at 2am you weirdos.

Due to the high demand of my life stories particularly from my PigCousinCarol who didn't bother to update her blog ever since chicken rice became RM 4 per plate, I'm gonna tell some old grandmother stories to give you some cheap laughs while you have nothing better to do the next 10 minutes.

Let's see, Jessica Loke was born on a dark and stormy afternoon - 3.12pm to be exact and was the only child in the family. That was until 1990 when MoJo decided that the more the merrier and pop out of my mother's womb. Jo has curly hair which no one in our family has so that is kinda weird. She claims to be 1/32 Thai because our great-grandmother is half Thai.

Our favorite food was and still is Rusk.


Malaysia's one is round.
Remember or not???


Few days ago in the supermarket Jo saw a baby holding a packet of Rusk and snatched it away.

Aiyo where is that funny/lame girl named Jess Loke why she so not funny today?!

Alright let me tell you a lame joke MoJo told me.
Don't cheat must read the whole story only you will get it.

One day, this girl got a haircut so she was really satisfied and was ready to go show off to all her friends. So she went to her close friend, unfortunately her close friend said

"Aiya! Why your hair square square like that not nice at all, look like a kite only."

Obviously the girl was like sad so she went home and wanted to find comfort in her mother.

"Mummy mummy! I got a haircut! And then my friend said not nice!"

Her mother replied "Aiya! Your friend is right la! Your hair really not nice at all, really look like a kite only!"

So the girl was really sad and depressed and emo and just turned back and ran out of her house and then she flew away.

Tuesday, September 02, 2008

The Easiest Way To Complete A Post


It's a TAG!

This one is not as boring as usual because it's filled with beautiful pictures with the great help of Goggle Image Search.

I know you guys seen this tag many times already but please pretend you haven't because Mojo keep bugging me to do it and it's easy so imma do it and shut her up.

A) Answer the questions below, do a Google Image Search with your answer, take a picture from the first page of results, do it with minimal words of explanation.

B) Tag 5 other people to do the same once you've finished answering every question.


1. The age you'll be on your next brithday:

20 lar it's that porn-like picture up there.
At least better than Jo's one - Eighteen.


2. A place you'll like to travel to:



The answer is yes I think the woman is topless.
By the way the place is Venezuela.
Not country of topless women and men with big bellies.


3. Your favourite place:

City Harvest Church!


4. Your favourite food:


What else?!

5. Your favourite pet:


I wanted Betty from my biology PEKA.
Then this Male Ugly Betty came up.


6. Your favourite colour combination:



7. Your favourite piece of clothing:


Obviously it's jeans and t-shirts lar!
But besides that I have a fetish for dentist uniforms.

8. Your all-time favourite song:

Girl From Ipanema by Stan Getz & Astrud Gilberto
But I really can't fathomize girls like that gave Stan Getz the inspiration.

Tall and tan and young and lovely
the girl from Ipanema goes walking
and when she passes each one she passes goes - ah

When she walks she's like a samba
that swings so cool and sways so gently
that when she passes each one she passes goes - ooh

9. Your favourite TV show:

Nothing. NOTHING can be better than this!
So what if everybody has slept with everybody else in this picture!

10. First name of your significant other/crush:

It was supposed to be Michael Phelps.

11. The town in which you live in:

No matter how much I wanna deny living here - Kota Kemuning, the town where everybody pays expensive petrol to travel to Subang.

12. Your screen name/nickname:


Hey I can touch my nose with my upper lips! Wanna see?

13. Your first job:

The place where I served floor-flavored eggs and chicken.
Yumm... I'm lovin' it.

14. Your dream job:

Porn star?
Erm.. No.. I'm trying to put myself through medical school...

15. A bad habit you have:

16. Your worst fear:

I can't find the picture for this.
My worst fear is a plane crashing on my house while I'm in the toilet.

17. The one thing you'd like to do before you die:


Join the Olympics!

18. The first thing you'll buy if you get $1,000,000:

It's probably not enough, thanks for your advance donation.