Tuesday, January 27, 2009

As Feist's Biggest Fan On The Whole Planet Malaysia

I ORDER you to watch THIS!



*droolssss* I've decided that I wanna marry a musician one day.

We'll be poor and end up busking on 42nd Street living from meal to meal.
And after a long day of busking we'd both make a bed in the subway and sing for the homeless there. If we got upset about being poor and all we'd still have Feist on youtube/imeem/myspace to cheer us up.

What great ambitions you have Jess..


I wanna learn to play the guitar *adds to new year resolution list* anyone has anywhere awesome to learn how to do that?

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Of Ephemeral Friendships and Conversations

Judging by the title you get a sense that something boring, philosophical and filled with Jess wissiness (pronounced why-zee-ness) is what's gonna happen next.



Today - 20th January 2009 - would be a day etched in every American's life.

But I'm not gonna talk about that lah.

Still bitter over Hillary Clinton's lost...

For a long time I haven't had a real conversation. You know, like a conversation when what you say actually comes out of your brain after some sort of processing. Until today, when I got duped into going to Pyramid.

My friends wanted to go to KFC for lunch; if you're like me, your first thought would be KFC SS15. However the AUP people in Inti has this weird habit of eating in Pyramid. Yes, just go there and eat then go back home. Normally Jess-the-Antisocial won't go right, BUT, recalling my new year resolution I decided to tag along.

And I was blessed, really, in having an actual conversation with this friendly AUP girl from college. She has the rare kind of charm that makes you feel at ease with sharing; she was a skilled listener, something I'm still trying to pick up. We talked about religions, beliefs and experience of transition we're in right now over KFC (in pyramid). Throughout the conversation, I get a feeling that I'm really connecting with somebody on a more 'soulful' level. It was then I was reminded again why I used to love talking to people, the exchange of ideas, discovery of new things. Used to because I enjoyed talking to people until I stumbled upon SOME amongst us who are incredibly superficial.

I'm too hurt to love again. wtf

I've never blogged that I'm currently enrolled in Inti College AUP (American University Program) because I was still trying to apply as a freshman and if I've enrolled in any institutions I would be disqualified. Some colleges actually google students applying for admission. But I've made a decision to leave as a transfer; that will be somewhere in Spring 2010 so YEAH you will still be seeing ALOT of me!

We AUP are a strange bunch of people. I think many of us are looking for a meaningful connection, looking for inspiration in the all liberal great American education. Some of us struggle to form bonds with one another only to find that many of these bonds will not live pass the fleeting 2 years we remain here. Like what my lecturer say "These credits are not transferable." (inside joke lar, just laugh okay) However within this 2 years, it remains our duty to form these bonds, continue to learn,inspire and encourage one another (especially with the bleak American future now).

Sebagai kesimpulan, Jessica is fiercely trying to humble herself this coming year while attempting meaningful conversation with anybody she meets *adds to list of resolutions*

Okay, you can go do other crappy things on facebook now you internet addicts.

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Jess Zooming into 2009 Butt Naked!

Kinda like how Tom Cruise slid into a particular underwear dancing scene from Risky Business!
But in Jess' sense of wisdomness it is more like jumping into the NewYear shedding old skin/self, discarding old beliefs, embracing change/Barack Obama...

No spammers please - I don't need Viagra nor sexmates nor cyberlivesex nor bigfathardons you bigfatdesperados.

It wasn't a pretty start actually.
I was 30 minutes late for my first class yet still not late enough to miss crucial information like how my 62 year-old lecturer has a billionaire son and 73 ex-girlfriends.

That day on Sam's blog I was reminded of the awesome 90s by Paul Oakenfold's Starry Eyed Sunshine - how happy and pop-like our culture was; no Iraq war (actually got gulf war), no financial crisis (actually got Asia 1997 crisis), no Malaysia-political crisis (Anwar's thingy), no rape/robbery on Star everyday (maybe once a month only), no Bush (okaylah, briefly early 90s then later got Monica Lewinsky hehe); how I was this restless, hyperactive child allowed to play at the padang whenever I want without fear of either being flashed at or abducted (only this one is true).

I was also reminded of LEN's Steal My Sunshine...

Steal My Sunshine - Len

It was one of my favorite song besides LFO's (what happened to these guys?) Summer Girls and Britney Spears' Lucky (yes i still like Britney so what).

summer girls - lfo

*flashback year 1998*

The weird-looking, basketball loving girl I was got the 3rd place in class! (By coincidentally memorizing the right essay for exam.) It was the first and only time it happened in the history of Jess-the-Great and I was so happy! My parents was so happy too, everybody was happy and there was world peace. that they got me my very first radio.

At that time where got such thing as Ipod or Mp3/4/5 or facebook...

I remember I instantaneously fell in love with my radio and with music. It is on all the time, even at sleep; my parents had slight regrets of buying it for me. I would sing and dance and perform for an invisible audience, have singing competitions with Ben and Jo (which I as the judge always pronounce me as the winner), hug my radio to sleep (seriously, not joking) and sing myself to sleep (even more serious, til' now I still do it).

Standing in the year that I'm turning 21, I feel that I want to relive all that; I want to feel more of life. I want to run with all my might, exhausted yet exhilarated because I know I'm running passionately for a purpose.

2008 - My goal was to age myself.

2009 - My goal is to abandon all I've been programed to believe in.

1. I shall sing and dance my heart out whenever possible.
2. I shall crush all my antisocial excuses and eat, laugh, play, reply messages.
3. I shall finish a book every fortnight and constantly challenge my thoughts and beliefs.
4. I shall clean Betty (my Wira, my hero wtf) more often and drive more carefully - max 80 km/h.
5. I shall stand up for myself - listen to myself more, listen to others less. (Too many cooks spoil the soup -I'm the soup here)
6. I shall facebook less more. Let's not be too optimistic.

Here I go!
All the best Jessica Loke!