Monday, March 29, 2010

I Had Fun Today!

Best things in life are always free
GOD's salvation is one of them

I haven't had fun for such a long time that I didn't notice fun is SO FUN!

It was 15 degree celsius outside today! The sun was shining, so a few of us went out to play frisbee! I was suppose to be doing my paper and studying for a quiz tomorrow but I went out and play in the sun! And it was FUN! A couple of us ran barefoot on the big grassy space in front of Selleck Quad (our residence hall) and laugh ourselves silly. I was running in shorts! It was the first time since December 2009 that my legs see sunlight again! The light is just so beautiful; and this light is Jesus :)

And when I got back, I was still suppose to study but I played Monopoly with Alexis and Yume! Yume taught me how to trick other people into giving up large sums of money and eventually fail. She learns all strategies of how to play monopoly from her boyfriend who watches people play monopoly on youtube. And she fights with her boyfriend when they play monopoly together!

Me: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5 - community chest! Tax refund, 50 dollars for you.

Yume: *sigh* I want REAL tax refund.

Here, everything is taxed. Food is taxed. Books are taxed. Clothes are taxed. International students who worked in the US will be taxed as well.


And I won at monopoly!

And because I had so much fun today I'm still up at 4am studying and typing my paper. But it doesn't matter, because I HAD FUN TODAY!!!

Thank You, Jesus :D

And the wonder of it all
is that I'm living just to fall
more in love with You

Perfect Peace

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Missing People Back in Malaysia

I'm in serious need of one of these!!!
(credits: toothpastefordinner)
For the first time in 10 years I have to share a room with someone. Mummy Loke used to say I'm the dirtiest girl in the whole wide world when she steps into my room. BUT NOW, I BEG TO DIFFER. I can see chunks of hair on the floor, trash full of garbage and a fridge filled with expired products. My room smells funny. All the time.
Yu came in to my room and gave me a pat on my shoulder and said, "Jessica, I'm so proud of you for being able to live in here." Couple of days later, Naeyoung said to me,"The last time when I went into your room I thought the smell came from you and I didn't dare to say anything because I didn't want to hurt your feelings. But now I know it's not you. Your room smells horrible!"
Oh Lord, please help me.

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

My Friends Say The Darnest Things

Yume: What sports do you guys play back in high school?

Me: Hmmmm... I think I used to play a bit of basketball.

Yume: But.. You're short.

Me: Doesn't mean I can't play!!! So what sort of sports do you play back in school?

Yume: I used to play tennis.

Me: But... You're really short too.

Yume: Ya, but I play because I wanted to wear the short skirt.

Yume is one of the funniest girl I've met here in Lincoln. She's also my Residence Assistant, means she's kinda like a mum who takes care of the people living on her floor. She has been a good mum so far, feeding us Japanese rice cakes whenever we're hungry and providing us with cans of Mountain Dew when we're thirsty. And she has appeared on The Star before too! (because Alexis' article about life in UNL got published on The Star haha)

At the dining hall...

Yume: Oh... I feel tired... I think I should take a nap.

Me: Yume, do you want to pass your accounting test, graduate and work in New York?

Yume: Oh no! I need to study!

Yume will graduate this May; she's secured a job in New York. Unfortunately, it means she's going to leave this May. Alexis also got a Residence Assistant position in Cather hall. Unfortunately, it also means that she's going to live in Cather this fall. More unfortunately, it also means I gotta start doing my own laundry. (Or I'm also considering the prospects of carrying my laundry to Cather hall, it's about 1-2 blocks away, not too bad).

Everybody's leaving this May.
No time to feel sad now, 2 exams and 1 paper due!
Have a good week people!

Happiness Is Looking At The Weather Forecast :D

Spring is here!
Spring is here!
Spring is here!

No more icy cold toilet seats in the morning.
No more big, fat, bulky winter coats.
No more dead trees, grass, everything....


Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Tuesday, March 09, 2010


I'm falling apart
I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart
that's still breathing

I have been wanting to post but kept putting it off because something else always comes up or that I'm too tired to. This is one thing I've noticed about American culture, or the typical life of an American student, the word busy is synonymous with it. You won't have time for anything unless you make time for it - you have to write it down in your schedule, set a mental reminder and make a commitment to fulfill it. I have been constantly busy with school and people - living in a dorm is like living with 30 siblings. It can be really fun but there will be times when you just want to avoid bumping into anyone.

It has only been barely 3 months since I left Malaysia, but my life back in Malaysia has already felt like a completely different life. So distant, almost as if it happened decades ago. Before coming here, I was afraid. But by the grace of God, I fitted in Nebraska perfectly. There was no trial and error, no feeling of loneliness, and no fear at all. And now that I am settled, I am afraid to go back. It might sound silly and I have the slightest clue why I feel this way.

Classes and papers have been some of the things I enjoyed most; workload is triple that of Inti's so I have been living from deadlines to deadlines. On average, I have at least one exam and two assignments due every week. I enjoyed all of them (with a slight exception for Statistics, but I'm learning to make peace with it). This few days the weather is finally in transition for Spring, the snow is melting, I can now see grass, shrubs and not feel like I'm living in a fridge!

Someone else is taking over
and I just wish to be completely broken for You

The people I've met so far are incredibly nice and helpful. I've had tons of free home-cooked dinner and lunches. I've met a guy who took of his (only) t-shirt to give it to me when I was shivering while walking outside; it was kinda scary because I have just met the guy, nonetheless, that is just so sweet of him because it was -5celsius outside! I've had the pleasure of talking to some of the most interesting people and meeting people from around the world who, like me, have came in search of a new self in the great United States of America.

I can't thank God more for what He has done for me; but I keep getting distracted. I feel completely alright but not at the same time. My heart feels completely fine yet broken at the same time; it is crying out for God but not at the same time.

In the pain
there is healing
In Your name
there is meaning

So I'm holding on
I'm holding on
I'm holding on
I'm barely holding on to You

Search me, O God, and know my heart! Try me and know my thoughts! And see if there be any grievous way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting!
Psalm 139: 23-24